You don't know me, and you probably never will but I just felt like writing this anyway. This blog may not live forever and I wont either, but if you are reading maybe it might move you in some way, make you think twice, change an opinion, I don't know. This blog I've created isn’t for anyone, or someone or even me. It just something that kinda happened, like most things in life. Take what you can from it, even if it leaves you with nothing.. So it’s the new year, 2011 here we come! New years eve is funny like that, we dive in so ready for the year not knowing what could possibly happen, hopes for a better year compared to the last, hopes for full-filling dreams and promises we make. Promises we make to ourselves, to others and then the year passes by so quickly and we end it with regret and relief that we can start all over again. It sounds pretty simple doesn’t it? But what if it really is? I mean we’re a few days into the new year, we could start shaping the rest of our year, the rest of our future as we want. What if we didn’t have to regret anything by the end of the year but instead be glad for the year and look forward to another year to come. I don’t know, I know I’m rambling and in some ways I make sense but you’re probably thinking what’s you point… I just feel like I don’t want to waste this year. Someone said to me the other day “your life begins at 40”, but I want my life to begin now, not when I feel like it’s too late, not when I might have missed opportunities and have regrets. I wanna start the future and shape it, even if I make a mess. I wanna get on a train and disappear in to an unheard of town where I don’t know anyone or anything. I wanna laugh like I used, where every moment mattered and I seized every moment. I wanna get lost somewhere with whoever and just be content with that. I wanna smile like there’s no tomorrow and live like there’s only today. I know how cliché this sounds, believe me! I don’t know about you, but I don’t wanna waste another year of my life only to look back at the end of the year and reflect on bad memories, and a lack of accomplishment and just a lack of happiness really I guess. Cause let’s face it, no one really looked back on 2010 with a smile and thought yeah this has been a good year! Unless of course you were one of the lucky ones! I wanna look back and think it’s been a crazy year, but it was worth it, all the good and the bad. At least I did… At least I accomplished… and hey this happened to me… I think you get the point.
So they say the worlds gonna end in 2012..we’ll see about that.. This. Is. My. Year. ..I’m not gonna give it up for no one.
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