Ever been stuck in one of those relationships that are nor here nor there. One of those more than friends, less than lovers and to top it off, miles apart of distance making the relationship a bit more impossible. Well I am, or at least I was.
The guy had always been a good friend, until he turned in to more. Although we were on the same page, nothing more could come of us for the time being as we were miles apart. The distance would be too hard. So from then to here we continued to carry on the way we were. But as time passed my feelings grew stronger and I began to want more from the relationship. Apart from physical contact, it lacked an emotional ground. He had more than just an insight into my life, whereas I only had a glimpse into his.
My attempts to make us closer failed miserably, leaving me to question what really ever was the foundation of our relationship, if you could call it that even. I wondered if we were just meant to be friends but his reluctance to give me up and his talks about the future, our future proved me so wrong. We were just stuck in the middle of nowhere, never really going anywhere and he was happy to remain like this. I was not.
So now I’m leaving. I’m going away for a while. Following my own sense of direction wherever it leads me I guess...
"I’m gonna go away, I’ll be back but I don’t know if I’ll want to. You have the opportunity, the chance to catch me before I go or never catch me at all. Because if I come back I’ll be coming back as just me, not as yours or as me and you. All this time I’ve felt partially bad, for leaving you. I wanted to make it last, make us last even if that meant I was away but you can’t even make it last when I am still here. So I’m gonna go away, on my own little adventure, coming back with stories to tell, but not coming back to you."
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